Unique

I’m not saying I’m any kind of wise, almighty Christian.. because I am the FURTHEST thing from that. But God has been teaching me SO much lately and I realized just the other night that I’ve come back to Him in a way that I didn’t know was possible. I was never gone from Him but I’ve been so dry these past few years!

The time I had in Belgium was so unique because of the physical time I had on my hands and because of the situation I was in. I had time to wake up when my body was ready (I’m a much happier person when I get to do that!). Because I had the time, I was awake when I spent my time with the Lord in the mornings. I wasn’t rushed with my time with Him because of some crazy schedule. And I was relying on Him like never before to help me build meaningful relationships with people that I was only going to be around for 5 months.

I’ve been LONGING for that since I came home 4 years ago, but I’ve only just realized that was a UNIQUE time and I probably will never have that again. However, it doesn’t mean that God can’t work in and through me in similar ways. My hunger for Him has grown recently and a lot of it is because of my singleness. One of my biggest desires is to find the love of my life, get married and have kids. But, for whatever reason, God isn’t allowing that right now (I could go on and on about all I’m learning through the series of Job we’re doing at church right now and how we just don't know what God is up to! It’s amazing). And since I have no idea why He’s allowing that, my purpose is to serve Him as best I can. THAT is my desire right now!! Sure, I’ve always wanted to have that attitude, but for the first time I really GET it. I know that I’m in a unique (there’s that word again) place in life and all I want is to honor Him so that I can be used by Him while I have this kind of time on my hands.

I say all of this in hopes to be an encouragement, not to brag on what a "wonderful Christian I've become." ha! I hope no one ever calls me that... because I will never amount to what God had in mind for us to be before sin entered the world. Of course if that were the case, Christ would not have needed to come and we would not have the word "Christian". But that's an entirely different discussion...

It has taken me YEARS to get to this point... and I still have a long way to go. And I will probably even backslide quite often. But at least I finally understand what Paul was talking about in I Corinthians 7:34. "...An unmarried woman is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit..."

Right now is when I have the time on my hands to serve the Lord with everything I have. Right now, I don't have a husband to devote my time and energy to. Right now, I don't have children that need my care and attention. So, RIGHT NOW is when I can devote ALL of myself to God and what He's called me to do... love and serve HIM! How amazing is that?? ;-)

the blog isn't dead!!!

i know, i know, i know, i know.... i know! it's been over a month. and i don't really have an excuse. other than i moved... again. and i don't have internet at home... at all. and i've been travelling... some. and i'm lazy... ok maybe that's the real answer :)

there has been so much going on in my head and i really want to get it out, so i PROMISE to get it up here soon (please feel free to harrass me until i do... accountability is a good thing!).

so for now, i leave you with a quote from the great Wayne Gretzky:

"You miss 100% of the shots you never take."

random, i know. but we ate at his restaurant in Toronto tonight and i liked it. therefore, i had to document while it was still fresh on my mind. haha!