I'm not normally a big "poem person" but this was on Arica's blog and it just resonated with me and where I am with God right now. Do you ever have those moments, days, months or years where God is just asking you to wait?? Sometimes it's painful, sometimes it's needed and sometimes you just don't have any kind of clue as to what in the world God is doing.

Luckily though, I know that HIS plans are what matter and HIS plans are what I want. Any time I've tried to do things on my own, I've either failed, failed miserably, or failed and had things blow up in my face. No, really, they actually did...

So... while some days I feel like I'm waiting simply as a last resort, today I'm making the CHOICE to wait. Because clearly God is working and personally... I'd rather not get in His way :)


WAIT
by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...
the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!"
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I relate
hangs in the balance and you tell me to Wait?"
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.

You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
as my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
and grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine...
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
when darkness and silence are all you can see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love
when the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,
the faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
but oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.

So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT."

One Goal Down

Well... I did it! I chopped my hair in order to donate it to Locks of Love. It's been about 5 years since I've had my hair this short. But I really like it!

Sing Out Loud

please, Please, PLEASE read Josh Ridings' new blog post. it's amazing....

Hello, my name is Billy Graham

12 Goals... because I don't do resolutions

1. donate my hair to Locks of Love
i've tried before but have been unsuccessful. they need 10 inches so i think by summer i'll be able to chop it without going with a pixie cut.

2. read at least one non-fiction book for every two fiction books i read
i love reading but i don't stimulate my brain with non-fiction :)

3. go see family in easley
they are just down the road. i have no excuse.

4. get in better shape
i know i know. it's cliché but i feel better when i work out and we are supposed to take care of the bodies God has given us, so it really just makes sense.

5. read the bible through
lee cunningham posted a chronological plan on facebook so there's a group of us reading through it. last time i tried i got about 3/4 of the way there so i want to finish this time!

6. go at least one date
no idea how i am going to make this happen, but well, surely it's possible.

7. save some money
i went through dave ramsey's financial peace this past summer and so far so good... i just want to stay on a roll :)

8. write at least one note/letter to a friend a month
i've been wanting to do this for a while but just haven't. so now it's in writing and i have to... right?

9. deepen my prayer life
my relationship with Jesus is more important than anything. but i don't always treat it that way. and again, i have no excuse.

10. purchase a pair of name brand jeans
i know it's kinda silly but i just want to. they're great jeans and really are worth the price! and since i know how to budget now, i can save up for them and not go into debt to buy them :)

11. be better about updating my blogs!
it's not super easy to do since i don't have internet at home but i'll just have to be more intentional about it

12. launch photographsbysabrina.com
keep your eyes open... i'll keep you posted!

HAPPY 2009!!!